Sepi..

Felt so lonely today mmmm. Terasa nak buat banyak activity bersama teman2 dalam satu masa.

Planning for next week;

1) Tengok Teater Lat; Kampung Boy @ Istana Budaya. Dah lama tak tengok teater last sekali tengok Natrah. Nak start balik kena selalu update calender IB sekarang.

2) Movie in the list "Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa". Dulu time sekolah pernah baca cerita neh rasanyer, komik2 yang dari china or somewhere else, tak ingat dah but the title really sound familiar.

3) Berkaraoke untuk melepaskan geram dan perasaan yang terbuku, boleh? Walaupun sore ku seperti buluh perindu, tetap tak over k.. nyanyi sorok2 jer.. ;p

Itu jer ker?? haaiihh.. apa lagi nak buat neh?mmm

Kalau ada aizan boleh main masak2 kat rumah kan..kan..kan.. Rumah ku sangat sunyi n sepi sekarang. Bosannnnnnn!!

07.03.2011

Such a busy..busy..busy day .. fuussshh!! Just another day.. survivor series ;p.

Nothing much to tell today beside than my work. Mmmmm, lebatnya hujan malam neh, best kalau dapat tido dengan lena sampai p

agi esok.. Dah lama sangat rasanya tak tido dengan lena sebegitu.

Maybe before tido kena dengar lagu Maher Zain dulu, baru dapat tido nyenyak gamaknya. Let's try nanti ya.

Next week will be my busy weekend, travel to terengganu for my sister "kenduri sambut menantu" at her husband side. Taking leave on Friday and Monday, ingat nak tinggal 1 hari di Temerloh.

Haiihh makin malas nak pergi kerja dari hari ke hari, but i have too! Mood holiday dah meronta2.. Tak sabar nak tunggu 4th May. My trip to Bali with Hawa and Sally. Best!

Dah imagine nak buat apa, plan nak pergi mana, nak rehat secukupnya. Dalam kepala sekarang dah terbayang2 keindahan Bali dan rumah mas

sage. Shopping? mmm.. x penting sangat, lagipun di Bali takder apa sangat yang boleh di beli, just for relaxing. Apa pun yang penting dapat massage!

This year, cuma boleh buat 1 trip sahaja, everyone busy with their own schedule, takperlaa dah masing2 ada urusan kan, at least we manage to do 1 trip. Next trip sapa tau, lagi best dan banyak. Insyallah..aminnnnnn..

Xder apa nak cerita sebenarnya, oklah leave you guys with a cute picture that i found today "Paddling with the Legend" ;p

Features of future Partner.

Excited huh!.. hahahha..

Just going through some stuff this afternoon, and i found the booklet from Mr. Eddie Rosyadie. Oh ya, for introduction, his the teacher or the expert about the "numbers" in your life, like birth date. From your birth date, they can come out with a story of your life.

Please do take a note that his not a fortune teller, "bomoh"or what so ever. He's just a man that have a knowledge about something and we can listen and learn something. The knowledge basically based on number, and they called it as "sains metafizik". Interesting stuff, we take what is good for us and ignore what is not.

Ok back to the title, last year i went to his classes and one of it is about the "Jodoh". They have this software that can calculate your birth date and come out with the "Astromorpho" or Astrological. Once you have yours, you will see your life graft with the other info in it.

From this graft, they can tell us about our life, career, spouse and etc.. and on my life graft the finding is quite interesting about my "jodoh" or future partner;

1) Great controller

* High expectation towards partners/spouse.

* May marry after the age of 30 years

* Husband got the rank but simple person

* Live in harmony

2) Great Justiciar

* The couple are emotional

* Although consistent married but still love the old lover (not a good one, yikes!)

3) Great Martial Artist

* Conscientious and independent partner

* Marriage becomes less prominent because of the cold and each have their own orientation (not a good one either)

4) Great Treasurer

* Couples who are good at planning and managing the family

5) Great Premier

* Partner that responsible and not anti social.

6) Great General

* Couples who have spontaneity

* Love is sometimes warm and sometimes cold

That 's my future partner! ;p

06.03.2011

WOW!!, how long since my the last post?? Too busy with my daily life. Now at the age of "23" am here again. Writing to myself.

So many things happens this few month or maybe years. Something that i, myself could not express it or even understand it. Looking back to my previous writing, now i understand how to learned your life from your pass.

While writing this entry, i can't stop smiling and thinking again on whatever things that i have wrote. Yes!! i did it again, i survive another year. Even before there's some sad, frustration, anger, and even jealousy but am still here to face a new year with a new challenge.

My hope to this year, i will become more sensitive and trust my instinct more than ever. Yes i have learned that your own instinct is more powerful than any voices. Listen to your heart and you will find the answer and way to make it, on whatever decision or path that your taking. Never ever forget to pray with your heart and soul to "ALLAH" and believe Allah knows what is the best for us.

Last 2 years i have gifted with lots of love from different people. Mummy and Ayah, will always be there for me no matter how difficult i can be, but they never lost their love towards me. Their love given me strength to face all the heartbreak and frustration.

To my brother and sister, i love you guys. Yes,we do argue sometimes, hates each other for a period of time. But i wont asked for a different brother or sister.

Lovely friends Hawa and Ema. Who know me more than myself. Who always be there when i need them. I love you so much. Girls, believe it or not we known each other more than 10 years now and going strong.

And to Maelvin, finally am over you, so over now. No more pain no more crying after dark. You will always become part of my life. I cherish all the love that we had. I will never ever deny you existent in my heart again. Will keep your memories save inside me. Maybe i will not find a guy like you again but i believe there's someone special for me out there.

If you reading this, thank you! thank you for all the time we spent, for all the love that we share and all the joy that you bring to my life. By saying and acknowledge this feeling it's become a medicine to my heartbreak.

LOVE is a powerful word that can bring lots lots lots of joy and event to a person. My brother and sister has found their love one, my friend has found their soul mate. And this will erase all the sadness and pain in their life. Wish them all a very happy and wonderful life together.

I thank Allah for giving me a chance to see and feel all this love. I my self will never stop looking for my LOVE once again.

Bahu ke Bahu bersama Cik Timah

Neh bukan lah sesi kaunseling bersama cik siantan yer.. neh cuma borak2 kosong among friend.

Last nite received phone call from my good friend dari JB. Sajer nak tanya kabar terbaru katanyer. Lama jugak laa kami tidak berbual mesraaaaaaaaaaa (ikut tone sore Bob Af)

Dalam borak2 tu adalah terselit senda gurau yang mengingatkan kisah2 kami dolu2 kala.. Indah sungguh saat muda2 dolu.. takyah pk pasal duit, pasal hutang, pasal gaji.. semua di sediakan.. nak2 zaman sekolah menengah.. lagi best.. kawan and lawan sama ramai.. ;p

Mmm.. dalam dok syok berbual tuh terselit kata2 yang tidak di jangka kan dari mulut seorg lelaki.. mmmm.. al maklumlaaa dia dah 2x kawin.. aku neh sekali pun x pernah kan.. Tapi membuatkan aku terkedu n terpk sejenak.. mmmm

"Kau neh jas.. asyik pi kenduri kawin orang, asyik belikan baju tuk anak sedara, asyik belikan hadiah tuk anak2 member.. bila nak ada anak sendiri, bila nak ada "sayang" sendiri??

"Ker ko neh anti Cinta, anti Lelaki, ko minat pompuan ker?" Gullllpppp!! berdengung kepala hotak aku jab..

Aku neh anti cinta ker??? anti lelaki??? minat pompuan??? astrafirrullahhallazimmmm.. nabi tak mengaku umat nanti.. yang 2 soklan tu aku tertanya gak.. Am I??

Nak pergi Bali.. Nak Pergi Bali..

Nak pergi bali.. nak pergi bali.. nak pergi bali.. yeeeaaahhhhh!!!

Next year trip confirmed Bali 28th April 2011 till 1st May 2011.. Yahhhhooooooooooo!! x sabar nyer..

Xtivity yang akan di jalankan adalah.. Massage.. Massage..Massage.. Massage!!! Heaven sangat wei.. kena start kumpul duit dah neh.. bawak RM1000.00 cukup tak??? Hotel + Food + Massage 3x sehari + shopping.. mmmmmmm..

Counting the days.....

Hujan..

Hujan lebat kat opis aku hari neh.. elok juga.. hari neh pun agak berbahang.. sejuk sikit bumi.. Nak citer pasal hujan ker??? Terasa seperti dialog Eddie dan Bella jer ;p

Last Wednesday Ladies nite with Hawa at Pavi tgk Eclipse.. Oklaa.. betul2 ikut buku.. and of coz, cerita nyer telah di pendek2 kan.. Hanya dialog2 penting saja yang di buat filem,..permulaan agak slow, probably director takder idea camner nak ketengah kan watak dan jalan cerita.. but hey, am a huge fans ok.. doesn't matter..

People so crazy talking about Eddie & Jake but they forget about the others character; Do you realize Jasper is so cute! Comey laa pulak si Jasper dalam filem kali neh.. and yes, i love his coolness also senyum senget nya! haiihh.. comey..comeyyyyy!!

Enuff about eclipse.. tunggu jerlah breaking dawn nanti.. mcm mana cerita nyer akan di terjemahkan melalui pelem..

Also looking forward to watch The Sorceress Apprentice & Harry Potter.. Teruja lah pulak tengok preview dia kat GCS while waiting for Eclipse.. Hopefully HP tak menghampakan seperti last movie "Half blood prince"..

Hmm.. tonite tunggu cik scallop terbang dari Singa.. nak lepak makan2 kat Kg baru laa.. dari semalam tekak neh mengidam makan bubur nasi soraya.. sedapnyer...

My heart says..

These few days, I'm missing you so much. Believe me when I say, I remembered every single words that you said. All the phone call that you made. All the laughter that you bring into my life.

If only I can say it out loud. If only I can talk to you once again. But your not here. You will never be here and will never knew all the pains and heartache that I have too deal with.

Gossshh... I'm still crying over you. I wish all these memories that you left behind is gone forever when I wake up every morning. I'm angry with myself because all these year, I still can't remove you from my heart.

I'm lying to myself that I will never miss you, that I can move on without you. 3 years passing by nothing could change how I feel about you.

"Maha Karya Cinta" used to be inside my lists of song. Now I can't even heard the song, It's remind me to you a lots. People will say that I'm such an idiot to let my life miserable like this. But they never know what we had (If we do had something).

Ya Allah. Sesungguhnya aku hamba mu yang sangat lemah...

Kerja Oh Kerja...

Aku nak berhenti kerja..aku nak berhenti kerja..aku nak berhenti kerja.. aku nak berhenti kerja..

resign..resign..resignnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!..

Aku dah bosan dengan "S_e_e_"... Makin hari aku main benci dengan "_t_v_n". Sangat sesak hidup aku sekarang... Hari2 pergi kerja dengan rasa benci dan marah.. Macam mana laa kerja aku nak sempurna.. AAAaaaarrrrggggghhhh!!

Aku kena tukar kerja.. aku kena tinggal kan company neh.. Aku perlu kerja keras tuk cari kerja lain.. aku harus.. walau apa pun terjadi.. aku akan usahakan..

Wait n See..

Lagenda Budak Setan..LBS

Haa.. nie kira entry back dated nyer.. aritu lupa nak citer..

Aku terpaksa jadi peneman kepada kawan2 ku yg sgt teruja nak nengok LBS neh.. tak paham tul aku.. budak lelaki suka tgk citer neh.. haaaiihh..

LBS.. aku tak taulaa pada mereka yg telah membaca novel dia maybe best laa kut.. tapi pada aku suam2 kuku jer.. x buat aku terkesan pun.. bak kata Ajib.. "ko x baca novel dia sebab tulah ko takder perasaan" hehehe.. kena baca ke??

Mengikut kata Ajib n Ciman.. dulu novel LBS neh sgt2 fofular di kalangan budak2 ala2 thn 90an .. Ahadiat Akasha penulis nyer sgt2 terkenal waktuh tuh.. kira ada jer buku terbaru AK neh sure habis mcm pisang goreng panas.. Ajib cakap novel LBS neh ada 5 buku.. mmmm.. panjang gak ek.. mcm Twilight series. LOTR series..

Aku pun tak sangka si Ajib n Ciman neh.. dalam hati ada kebun bunga.. heheheh.. berbalik pada citer LBS neh.. mmm.. byk benda yg aku takleh terima secara logicnyer... antaranyer adalah apabila si ayu berkahwin dgn exbf dia yg kaki pukul tuh.. x ingat dah apa nama nyer tapi lakonan Que Haidar.. dah tau mamat tuh kaki pukul buat per la pi kawin dengan dia.. cakap jerlah kat mak dia yg mamat tu kaki pukul, kaki pompuan.. haaihh.. tak paham tul pelajar "U" tapi pemikiran sebegitu..

Mak si ayu tu pun satu.. kalau yer pun termakan budi sekalipun.. dah sakit2 jantung mcm nak mati.. lepas anak kawin terus sihat walafiat.. mcm main2 jer.. dah tuh.. takkan laa si ibu nyer tuh tak tau perihal lelaki yg nak di kawin kan dgn si anak tuh.. patutnyer mak dia tuh.. selidik dulu.. tanya si anak.. zaman sekrg ada lagi ker yg mcm tuh?? sib baik mak pak aku tak mcm tuh.. kalau idak confirmed aku kuar paper"Lari dari rumah, elak kawin paksa" haaaaa.. title dlm class gitu..hehehehheheeheh..

Tapi walau apa2 pun.. aku mmg tak berapa minat citer melayu.. bukan nak diskriminasi tapi.. citer melayu neh semua sama jer.. dah leh agak dah apa ending nyer apa masalahnyer.. mcm citer industan..

Next... dlm schedule aku adalah citer "Eclipse" sgt2 tak sabar...

Sangat tak sihat..

Sejak dua menjak neh aku sangat tak sihat... migrain sepanjang minggu boleh? Kepala sakit berdenyut2.. mcm takder henti..

Yesterday, MC.. makan ubat tido yang doctor bagi.. mmg lena aku tido seharian semalam.. aku bangun kul 6.45am mcm biasa siap2 nak ke pejabat.. tgh2 siap kepala rasa melelong jer.. tapi gagah kan juga nak pi kerja.. smpi di depan wantan..aku rasa sgt2 nak pitam.. tapi gagah kan juga masuk n duduk dlm wantan.. sehinggalaa.. aku nak gerakkan wantan baru aku perasaan aku blom start enjin wantan.. terus aku batalkan niat tuk pergi kerja tapi terus ke klinik Dr. Kamariah..

Hasil pemeriksaan, Dr. Kamariah cakap..aku stress.. sentiasa stress.. darah aku pun ada naik sikit.. 130/100.. tidak seteruk dulu.. terus dia bertanya kan pasal kerja aku.. cari punya apa benda yg buatkan aku sgt stress.. tetiba aku terasa Dr. Kamariah seperti cikgu kaunseling pulak.. Setelah hampir 30min berborak dgn Dr. aku di nasihatkan agar berehat 1 hari dirumah.. Dr. Kamariah siap berpesan " Kalau nak betul2 rehat, off HP.. kunci pintu bilik.. bagi sms kat org2 terdekat bahawa tidak di ganggu dlm masa 12 jam"..

Tapi memandang kan kerja ku yg tidak mengizinkan aku off hp.. terpaksa laa aku membiarkan sahaja HP itu dlm keadaan "Silent".. dapat laa jugak aku berehat semlm dgn sedikit tenang..

Today, terpaksa dtg kerja kerana ada "mgmt meeting" yg aku perlu attend.. pagi tadi.. kepala terasa panas beruap n sakit kepala dtg lagi.. sekrg.. masih sakit kepala n tengkuk.. kepala pun terasa panas beruap.. aduhh.. jgnlaa denggi lagi.. aku serik..serik...

Esok rasa mcm nak pi check darah.. mana lah tau kan.. harap2 tidak.. aku dah tak terdaya nak sakit sekrg neh.. kerja makin menimbun..

Hachiko..True Story,,

Has anyone seen this movie?? I did.. it's really heartwarming story.. Please watch the movie and you will felt the love and saddeness of losing someone that you love the Most..

I almost cry towards the end.. This story is all about love, devotion & loyalty that many of us seems forgetting the meaning of it.

This heartwarming true story is an adaptation of a Japanese tale about a loyal dog named Hachiko. A story begin with the Master found this sweet, cute and healthy little dog wonder around near the train station. The Master took the dog back and try to look for the dog owner, without knowing that the dog itself already choose the Master as its owner.

Time passed by, the whole town known Hachiko and the Master because this very special friend would accompany his Master to the train station everyday and return each afternoon to greet him after work. One day, the Master never return to the train station, his passes away.

Every one shock by the death of the Master and the family has decided to move, leaving the town. But Hachiko faithfully return to the same spot at the station the very next day and every day for the next 9 years to wait for his beloved Master.

During his daily visits, Hachiko touches the lives of many who work near and commute thrrough the town square. He teaches the local people Love, Compassions and above all unyielding loyalty till his last breaths.

Today, a bronze statue of Hachiko sits in his waiting spot outside the Shibuya station in Japan as a permanent reminder of his devotion and love.

Watching this movie makes me wonder, do we, human still have that feeling towards one another?

Secara Tiba2 kan..

Hah.. secara tiba2 kan.. haku terpk nak mengupdate kan blog aku yg dah hampir2 nak pupus neh.. dah berapa bulan tak update.. due to kebusy'an yg amat sgt..

Pertama2 nak update.. aku dah ada "Wantan".. bukan wantan noodle, bukan juga wantan sup, tidakkkkkkkk.. bukan wantan goreng.. tapi "Wantan Saga"..hehehe.. aku dah ada kereta.. yerler.. apa guna nyer ada lesen kalau takder keter kan.. Makcik sgt2 bersemangat dpt lesen terus order keter.. haa.. ambik ko sebijik.. So sekrg kalau nak kemana2 or nak menghabiskan duit takperlu laa aku bersusah payah tuk mengajak org sana org sini.. aku dah ada wantan.. wantan jerlaa jadi peneman aku kalau depa2 tu semua bz kan.

Dah 3 bulan bersama wantan.. dah mcm2 pengelaman kami lalui bersama.. sakit hati tau bila wantan tercedera.. huh!! gambar jer takder.. tak smpi hati nak snap.. kesian kat wantan.. tapi berkat kasih sayang wantan telah sihat sejahtera.. seperti sediakala.. Alhamdulilah..tiada yg kritikal.. hehehe.. I love you very strong wantan!!!

Tamat kisah wantan..

Last month My lovely friend telah di anugerahkan dengan title "PUAN".. Syukur alhamdulilah.. makbul juga doa2 Puan Yusniza tuk memiliki seorg lelaki yg layak dia panggil "Suami", tempat berlindung, bermanja, bergurau senda, bersakit2 n bersenang2 bersama.. so sweeettttt..

Rombongan Cik Kiah bertolak ke penang bagi meraikan majlis tersebut.. al kisah.. cik kiah aka cik jasina terpaksa menjadi bidan terjun cameraman n pengapit.. turun2 flight jer dah ada kerja.. aduhh.. udah ler cik kiah tak pernah jadi pengapit2 neh.. sosak nafas den.. tapi sib baik.. ada lagi ahli2 rombongan cik kiah iaitu cik hawa n cik erma yg bersama2 menghulurkan bantuan n idea2 yg bernas bagi melancarkan tugas2 cik kiah pada hari tersebut..


Tapikan.. cik kiah ternangis laa pulak waktu selesai sahaja majlis ijab n qabul tersebut.. tetiba jer perasan terharu gembira terbit dari hati makcik.. dlm hati.. 'kawin dah kawan aku yg montel neh"..


Sejak 3 minggu neh opis haku berbau cat.. renovation blom siap2 lagi. aku dah hampir2 nak "high" dengan bau cat neh.. mau gak nanti putus urat kepala aku neh di sebab kan hari2 hidu bau cat yg sgt menyesakkan kepala hotak..

Ok..ok.. enuff pasal renovation.. apa lagi nak update ek? jab pk..

haaaa.. tau2.. tapi.. takperlaa.. esok jerlah update.. ;p

Selamat Melahirkan..

Setelah bertahun bertapa, berbulan berusaha, akhirnya.. aku telah selamat melahirkan "P" pada 24.12.2009. yahoooooooooooo!!

Setelah 3 hari tak tido dengan lena memikirkan apakah yang bakal berlaku pada hari tersebut, setelah 3 hari aku tak lalu makan setiap kali teringat kan "JPJ".. semua itu berbaloi2 setelah mendapat result LULUS pada hari yang sama..

Penat lelah aku bangun setiap pagi pada hari cuti berbalas jua.. penat lelah cikgu Nazri aku mengajar dan memaksa aku mengambil ujian berbalas jua.. legaaaaaaaaa.. seperti satu beban yang berat terlepas dair dada aku nie hah..

Sekarang aku tak perlu rasa takut lagi kalau nak drive ke mana2.. "P" pasti akan menemani aku sentiasa.. heheheh.. bahagia kan?, ;p

Tak sabar nak tengok "P".. haaaihh..

Letih, penat, lelah..

I'm tired of wishing for something good to happen,

I'm tired of chasing the dream that will never came truth,

I'm tired of talking with someone that make me feel stupid,

I'm tired of listening to all the nonsense that make me angry,

I'm tired of waking up every morning with joy and feel bad in the afternoon,

I'm tired of being someone that always worries about the future;

I'm tired of being invisible to the person i love,

I'm tired of waiting...

I'm tired of being me!!

Bosang!

Takder menda nak update sebenor nya.. Tengah kebosanan teramat nie... kerja2 yg menimbun nie x mampu tuk menghilangkan kebosanan aku.. haaiiihh.. penat2..

Mlm nie ada makan free lagi.. tapi lepas isyak.. mlm nie jugak aku aka n dpt housemate baru.. Alhamdulilah.. xderlah penat aku nak bayar sewa nanti..harap2 penghuni baru nie.. lama lah sikit doknyer.. aku dah penat nak cari housemate.. kalau lah aku terjumpa duit 4 billion.. bestnyer.. confirmed aku beli umah tu.. tak yah nak sewa2 lagi.. huhuhuuhuhuhuh..

Tadi ada org bertanya kan soklan b*d*h kat aku.. aku pun apa lagi.. buat muka sengal aku lah.. perlu ker aku menjawab soklan tu.. haaiihh.... penat otak tau tak! Sib baiklaa aku nie seorg yg penyabar.. kalau idak dah lama kaki naik atas kepala..

Sabtu nie ada plan ngan cik siti hawa tuk kuar berjogging pada sebelah paginya.. al maklumlaa.. lepas2 raya nie kan.. byk lak store2 simpanan yg terlebih.. so kenalah lupuskan.. sebelum bertambah padat.. ;p tu pun kalau terbangun di awal pagi.. insyallah..

Pada sebelah ptg sabtu nya pula.. aku ada makan2 lagi kat rumah kak Zuraidah.. majlis harijadi anak nyer yg comel, cute & montel.. tak tau nak beli apa.. kalau beli baju takut tak muat lak.. tgh cari mainan yg membantu dlm pembentukan otak kanak2.. apa ek? nak tgk kat Toys R Us laa..Sambil update blog nie.. aku sempat lagi melihat koleksi2 gambar yg ada dlm laptop aku.. byknyer kenangan.. chapter2 yg lepas pun ada.. haiih.. rindu pulak..

Dlm byk2 gambar tu adalah dua tiga yg menyentap jiwa raga aku nie hah.. adoilaa.. sentap lagi ker?? Biarkan sentap terjun dgn labu2nyer.. Yg paling best aku ada koleksi gambar anak buah ku yg ensom.. dari mula lahir smpi sekrg.. nanti dia dah besar nak kena charge kat dia nie.. tunggulaa.. nanti aunty Jas buat bill yer..

Finally, I have time..

Mak aiii,

Lama nyer aku x menjengok ke blog nie.. x tau apa jadi tah.. haiih.. tetiba today terasa nak mengupdate blog ku yang dah lama jadi perkasam... sedapnyer ikan perkasam...makan dengan nasi panas2.. haiihh.. tangkap leleh.. isshh..isshh. asik ingat makan jer aku nie.. mcm mana nak kurus.. adehh.. thn depan kut.. kahkahkahkah..

Hmmm.. next month aku nak ambik driver license.. kena start from beginning sebab lesen L aku dah lama mati.. x leh renew ker? nak masuk class amali tu yg paling aku malas.. tapi dek kerana kesanggupan bapak ku tuk membeli kan aku Saga SE.. aku akan kerahkan seluruh tenaga ku tuk mengambil lesen memandu.. I love you very the strong bapakkkkkkk!!!.. hehehehe..

Ada sapa2 baik dgn org JPJ tak? heheheh.. ooppsss.. xleh cakap..nanti kena masuk lokap.. ;p... doakan laa semoga aku lulus dgn cemerlang sekali nanti yer.. cepat aku dpt lesen..cepat jugak aku dpt keter.. bestnyer.. boleh laa aku pergi kemana sahaja aku nak lepas nie.. nak balik temerloh every week pun boleh.. best2..

Hari nie TPM ada buat open house tuk semua tenant2 nyer.. jab gi aku akan gi melantak.. kul 530 nanti aku ada open house MDec lak.. melantak lagi... alhamdulilah.. murah rezeki laa katakan.. tiap2 hari ada org nak bagi aku makan free.. nilah namanyer rezeki hari raya.. hehehe..

Kepada mereka2 yg mangajak aku makan free.. terima kasihhhhhhhhhhh.. jasa mu di kenang jua..

Samseng Biadap!

Haaa, ada pun citer aku nak update kat sini.. dah lama giler rasa nyer x menaip..

Aku ada citer tentang kebiadapan seorang manusia.. boleh ker di panggil manusia atau orang?? eee..baru intro jer dah meluap2 balik kemarahan aku nie.. sangat aku tak puas hati..

Pagi tadi aku gi klinik Dr. Kamariah kat umah aku setiawangsa tu.. area2 "CIMPENG".. elok2 jer aku kuar lepas check kat sana.. tup2 aku dengar dan lihat ada seorang lelaki tengah terjerit2 macam kena histeria..

Aku konpius gak lah.. apa hal lah mamat nie terjerit2 .. sekali bila di perhatikan betul2.. rupanyer dia tengah bergaduh dengan seorang lelaki yang duduk di dalam kereta.. aku pun melihat laa dengan muka konpius sekejab.. lepas tu barulah aku tau terjadi sedikit kemalangan antara orang yang bawak kereta tu dengan mamat yang menjerit2 kat tepi jalan tu..

Kemalangan yang di maksud kan tidak lah teruk mana.. orang yang bawak keter tu "tercuit" sikit jer peha dia.. waktu nak belok depan cimpeng tu.. tapi mamat tu punya histeria macam dah patah riuk dah dia tu.. lagipun kat depan cimpeng tu mana leh bawak laju2 jalan sempit banyak keter2 yang kuang ajaq parking ikut suka hati hitam diaorang.. aku rasa mamat tu pun parking ikut suka hati dia.. padan muka kena cuit sikit..

Aku menyaksikan sendiri adengan kebiadapan mamat tu dengan pemandu kereta tu.. yang lebih menyakit kan hati adalah.. pemandu kereta tu merupakan pakcik atau lebih layak di panggil ATUK! dengan keadaan terbongkok2 dia keluar dari kereta.. aduuuhh.. rasa nak pergi lempang jer mamat yang terjerit2 mcm kena histeria tu..

Masih jelas di telinga dan otak aku nie patah perkataan mamat biadap tu.. dah lah menengking2 siap hempas2 pintu atuk tu.. lepas tu.. bila atuk tu kuar dari keter.. boleh dia nak ambik kayu pukul atuk tu.. memang biadap sungguh.. anak sapa laa tu..

Nasib baik di waktu tu ramai orang yang sedang bersarapan di depan kedai mamak dan juga di dalam bank.. mereka2 nie semua keluar tuk menahan mamat giler tu dari terus memaki hamun dan memukul atuk tu.. dalam masa yang sama mereka membantu atuk tu masuk semula dalam kereta dan menyuruh atuk tu beredar jer dari situ... mamat yang sangat biadap nie.. masih tak puas hati terusan memaki hamun atuk dan orang di sekeliling dia dengan nada yang terjerit2 mcm org giler!!

Aku sangat tak puas hati dengan mamat tu.. aku call rakan cop lepas tu.. aku bagitau ada orang giler mengamuk dekat cimb, dan orang tu hampir2 memukul atuk tua. Puas hati aku.. Padan muka mamat giler yang sangat2 biadap tu..

Walaupun atuk tu yang salah.. pada aku tak sepatutnyer dia bersikap biadap seperti tu sampai nak memukul2.. kalau melihatkan keadaan atuk tu.. kena jentik pun dia tumbang.. adeeh.. berlinang jab airmata aku nengok kan kebiadapan manusia seperti tu.. tak tau adap sopan langsung!!

Aku tak sempat nak tengok apa kesudahan atuk ngan mamat biadap tu.. tapi aku harap2 kan orang2 di sana dapat membantu atuk tu dari terus di buli oleh manusia seperti binatang tu..

Sampai office nie pun aku masih tak puas hati lagi.. terngiang2 lagi kat telinga aku akan bahasa2 kesat dan perlakuan mamat tu.. aku mintak2 balik jer dari cimb tu mamat tu terlibat dalam kemalangan yg teruk supaya dia sampai bila2 takleh kuar rumah lagi. Jahat ker aku doa macam tu?? aarrrrhhh.. biar padan muka mamat giler tu..

4.30am..Masih Berjaga..

Adehhh!!.. dah nak masuk subuh..aku masih takleh tido.. kenapaaaaaaaaa...mengapaaaaa??

Esok pagi mesti mcm zombi.. mcm mana nak bangun awal esok pagi nih..kalau dah waktu nie masih tak tido lagi.. adoilaa.. esok aku perlu melakukan kerja2 rumah yang dah lama tertangguh.. eh apa lak esok..skrg laa.. nie dah pagi.. pagi nanti , pembetulan..

Mata oh mata..kenapa kau taknak lelap.. lelap laa.. bagilaa aku tido dgn lena..

Night-- june 3,2009

I had a dream, a song to sing, to help me coupe with anything. If I can see the wonders of a fairy tales. Yeah if only I can see it. A fairy tales story, could it be mine someday??

Last 2 years. I do have a dream and a song to sing and it’s help me coupe with anything but when the reality check, everything seem to disappear just like that.

Wish I could turn back the time, I wish I could hold it from running but it’s not possible to do. And if anyone could do it, I don’t think the Universe will allow it to happen. What should I do to make sure I won’t regret every experience that I had in my life?

Gosh!! every minute getting harder and harder, at this point of time, I do wish someone could hold me and tell me that it’s going to be OK. Its remind me to a song that used to sing to myself whenever I felt lost.

“I’m a big big girl, in a big big world, it’s not a big big thing if you leave me, but I do do think that I do do will miss you much.. miss u much”

Tonight at this very moment, I do miss you, if today is our night, I’m gonna make it up to you. Tonight I will dedicate my heart to you. I’m gonna be a part of you. Tonight is the longest night and I wondering what you do. Since we're apart, I do felt miserable. Maybe it's a sign that I'm in love with you.

Ku benar-benar cinta, ku benar-benar sayang, tak terjawab bila hati bertanya, ke mana kau hilang.

Miserable..miserable..miserable..