My heart says..

These few days, I'm missing you so much. Believe me when I say, I remembered every single words that you said. All the phone call that you made. All the laughter that you bring into my life.

If only I can say it out loud. If only I can talk to you once again. But your not here. You will never be here and will never knew all the pains and heartache that I have too deal with.

Gossshh... I'm still crying over you. I wish all these memories that you left behind is gone forever when I wake up every morning. I'm angry with myself because all these year, I still can't remove you from my heart.

I'm lying to myself that I will never miss you, that I can move on without you. 3 years passing by nothing could change how I feel about you.

"Maha Karya Cinta" used to be inside my lists of song. Now I can't even heard the song, It's remind me to you a lots. People will say that I'm such an idiot to let my life miserable like this. But they never know what we had (If we do had something).

Ya Allah. Sesungguhnya aku hamba mu yang sangat lemah...

Kerja Oh Kerja...

Aku nak berhenti kerja..aku nak berhenti kerja..aku nak berhenti kerja.. aku nak berhenti kerja..

resign..resign..resignnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!..

Aku dah bosan dengan "S_e_e_"... Makin hari aku main benci dengan "_t_v_n". Sangat sesak hidup aku sekarang... Hari2 pergi kerja dengan rasa benci dan marah.. Macam mana laa kerja aku nak sempurna.. AAAaaaarrrrggggghhhh!!

Aku kena tukar kerja.. aku kena tinggal kan company neh.. Aku perlu kerja keras tuk cari kerja lain.. aku harus.. walau apa pun terjadi.. aku akan usahakan..

Wait n See..

Lagenda Budak Setan..LBS

Haa.. nie kira entry back dated nyer.. aritu lupa nak citer..

Aku terpaksa jadi peneman kepada kawan2 ku yg sgt teruja nak nengok LBS neh.. tak paham tul aku.. budak lelaki suka tgk citer neh.. haaaiihh..

LBS.. aku tak taulaa pada mereka yg telah membaca novel dia maybe best laa kut.. tapi pada aku suam2 kuku jer.. x buat aku terkesan pun.. bak kata Ajib.. "ko x baca novel dia sebab tulah ko takder perasaan" hehehe.. kena baca ke??

Mengikut kata Ajib n Ciman.. dulu novel LBS neh sgt2 fofular di kalangan budak2 ala2 thn 90an .. Ahadiat Akasha penulis nyer sgt2 terkenal waktuh tuh.. kira ada jer buku terbaru AK neh sure habis mcm pisang goreng panas.. Ajib cakap novel LBS neh ada 5 buku.. mmmm.. panjang gak ek.. mcm Twilight series. LOTR series..

Aku pun tak sangka si Ajib n Ciman neh.. dalam hati ada kebun bunga.. heheheh.. berbalik pada citer LBS neh.. mmm.. byk benda yg aku takleh terima secara logicnyer... antaranyer adalah apabila si ayu berkahwin dgn exbf dia yg kaki pukul tuh.. x ingat dah apa nama nyer tapi lakonan Que Haidar.. dah tau mamat tuh kaki pukul buat per la pi kawin dengan dia.. cakap jerlah kat mak dia yg mamat tu kaki pukul, kaki pompuan.. haaihh.. tak paham tul pelajar "U" tapi pemikiran sebegitu..

Mak si ayu tu pun satu.. kalau yer pun termakan budi sekalipun.. dah sakit2 jantung mcm nak mati.. lepas anak kawin terus sihat walafiat.. mcm main2 jer.. dah tuh.. takkan laa si ibu nyer tuh tak tau perihal lelaki yg nak di kawin kan dgn si anak tuh.. patutnyer mak dia tuh.. selidik dulu.. tanya si anak.. zaman sekrg ada lagi ker yg mcm tuh?? sib baik mak pak aku tak mcm tuh.. kalau idak confirmed aku kuar paper"Lari dari rumah, elak kawin paksa" haaaaa.. title dlm class gitu..hehehehheheeheh..

Tapi walau apa2 pun.. aku mmg tak berapa minat citer melayu.. bukan nak diskriminasi tapi.. citer melayu neh semua sama jer.. dah leh agak dah apa ending nyer apa masalahnyer.. mcm citer industan..

Next... dlm schedule aku adalah citer "Eclipse" sgt2 tak sabar...

Sangat tak sihat..

Sejak dua menjak neh aku sangat tak sihat... migrain sepanjang minggu boleh? Kepala sakit berdenyut2.. mcm takder henti..

Yesterday, MC.. makan ubat tido yang doctor bagi.. mmg lena aku tido seharian semalam.. aku bangun kul 6.45am mcm biasa siap2 nak ke pejabat.. tgh2 siap kepala rasa melelong jer.. tapi gagah kan juga nak pi kerja.. smpi di depan wantan..aku rasa sgt2 nak pitam.. tapi gagah kan juga masuk n duduk dlm wantan.. sehinggalaa.. aku nak gerakkan wantan baru aku perasaan aku blom start enjin wantan.. terus aku batalkan niat tuk pergi kerja tapi terus ke klinik Dr. Kamariah..

Hasil pemeriksaan, Dr. Kamariah cakap..aku stress.. sentiasa stress.. darah aku pun ada naik sikit.. 130/100.. tidak seteruk dulu.. terus dia bertanya kan pasal kerja aku.. cari punya apa benda yg buatkan aku sgt stress.. tetiba aku terasa Dr. Kamariah seperti cikgu kaunseling pulak.. Setelah hampir 30min berborak dgn Dr. aku di nasihatkan agar berehat 1 hari dirumah.. Dr. Kamariah siap berpesan " Kalau nak betul2 rehat, off HP.. kunci pintu bilik.. bagi sms kat org2 terdekat bahawa tidak di ganggu dlm masa 12 jam"..

Tapi memandang kan kerja ku yg tidak mengizinkan aku off hp.. terpaksa laa aku membiarkan sahaja HP itu dlm keadaan "Silent".. dapat laa jugak aku berehat semlm dgn sedikit tenang..

Today, terpaksa dtg kerja kerana ada "mgmt meeting" yg aku perlu attend.. pagi tadi.. kepala terasa panas beruap n sakit kepala dtg lagi.. sekrg.. masih sakit kepala n tengkuk.. kepala pun terasa panas beruap.. aduhh.. jgnlaa denggi lagi.. aku serik..serik...

Esok rasa mcm nak pi check darah.. mana lah tau kan.. harap2 tidak.. aku dah tak terdaya nak sakit sekrg neh.. kerja makin menimbun..

Hachiko..True Story,,

Has anyone seen this movie?? I did.. it's really heartwarming story.. Please watch the movie and you will felt the love and saddeness of losing someone that you love the Most..

I almost cry towards the end.. This story is all about love, devotion & loyalty that many of us seems forgetting the meaning of it.

This heartwarming true story is an adaptation of a Japanese tale about a loyal dog named Hachiko. A story begin with the Master found this sweet, cute and healthy little dog wonder around near the train station. The Master took the dog back and try to look for the dog owner, without knowing that the dog itself already choose the Master as its owner.

Time passed by, the whole town known Hachiko and the Master because this very special friend would accompany his Master to the train station everyday and return each afternoon to greet him after work. One day, the Master never return to the train station, his passes away.

Every one shock by the death of the Master and the family has decided to move, leaving the town. But Hachiko faithfully return to the same spot at the station the very next day and every day for the next 9 years to wait for his beloved Master.

During his daily visits, Hachiko touches the lives of many who work near and commute thrrough the town square. He teaches the local people Love, Compassions and above all unyielding loyalty till his last breaths.

Today, a bronze statue of Hachiko sits in his waiting spot outside the Shibuya station in Japan as a permanent reminder of his devotion and love.

Watching this movie makes me wonder, do we, human still have that feeling towards one another?